Pefection

Perfection is hard to attain, when you don't have the time for it.

It get's me thinking... Damn! Where the HECK did my summer go?! Atleast, during that time I could have worked at it... Perfection... What a f*$^in shallow, selfish, conceited, self-righteous wordddd. When you label it on yourself of course.

Man, I wanna be effin' BEAUTIFUL! From head to toe, no flaws. NO discolorations, Pimples, fat, shortness (cus i wanna be just one inch taller), faT, FAT, big Honkin NOSE, uneven Tan, Pimples, split nails, fat face, double chin, that I know 90% of the people I interact with don't EVEN Notice AT ALL,
except for ME (and that other 10%, Fcck youuu) ...

Why can't I just be satisfied with myself?

Bittersweet Dreams

You know how sometimes you dream about people you haven't seen in years.. like FRIGGIN' years.. and they don't age or anything, in your dream they are just the way they were when you last saw them.. appearance, age, personality, and most important, the relationship you had with them. And for a brief moment in time (or more so your dream), everything seems Perfect. Like how things used to be before the drama, pain, and hurt. And it’s funny, because when you were awake this person hadn’t crossed your mind in forever, let alone crossed your path in a while. But, just by one touch in your dream, holding hands, a hug, everything comes back and it’s the best feeling in the world. And all you can think about is “Damn, I really miss this person…”

But is it really “Damn, I miss this person…” or is it “Damn, I miss this kinda love…?”

I think I've known it's been "Damn, I miss this kinda love..." a while now. I know I can't force these things though. People have come and gone, and I'm still tryna figure out what kinda love I want and have to offer. I can't wait to discover that HUG that will bring me back to this dream and that "butterfly-in-stomach-fantasmic-fun-loving-Fuzzy-Wuzzy-ice-cream-beautiful-fresh-warm-secure-strong-mushy-delicious-smells-O-SO-GOOD" HUG feeling! Yep, I can't wait!

So what are you waiting for people! Show me the loveeeeeee :D

PS. This past wednesday I went to Macys Passport Fashion Show 2008! AND WOOT GUESS WHO I SAWWWWWW!!!!!

THE JABBAWOCKEES!!!

Yea FOLKSSS! IT was really THEMM!!! Don't Hate!!! And the feeling I got when watching them perform was super close to the level of wonderfulness I felt in my dream. So i guess, my Jabbawockees spell will hold me down for now !!

OMG! MAD LOVEEEEEEEEE :DDD